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The tears behind the smile .
Friday, November 5, 2010 @ 7:36 PM
 It's been such a long time since I blogged rights ? Mostly because I don't feel like switching on the computer , kinda too lazy you know ? So , I just slacked around in my room . Spent my days texting , sleeping and day-dreaming . I felt like writing stories but I just had no inspiration to continue it . Is that good or bad ? Should I continue , just feel so shag . Even during the extra lessons , I don't even feel like listening to the teachers . Ugh , stupid results . Feel so freaking disappointed in myself you know ? Only emaths stand out in my report book . Feel like crying but it's my fault for not studying hard enough . Choir was kinda epic and almost impossible to catch up . The Japanese song was so hard too sing !!! And the mouth shape ugh . But the melody and the meaning is so wonderful , it's just not possible to throw it all away . The notes for the soprano is so freaking high . It's so hard for me . I'm a half alto and half soprano . How can I sing sooo high . Plus it's kind of annoying in sectionals . The members just wouldn't cooperate . Sighs . Syf , how can we get a silver from you ): Had BBQ in the afternoon , was so fun . Food and pictures taken . Gonna upload them soon I guess . Almost all of them are my two adorable cousins . They're brother and sister . They are just so cute you know :) My xiaoee came , missed her . And I realised she visits my blog . So , she's going read this post I think . So , xiaoee , TAG ME ALRIGHT , I LOVE YOU AND LAST LONG OKAY OKAY . Played taptap and etc in her iphone . Fyi , I still don't like iphone . And then ... I FINALLY WATCHED GLEE . It was nice I guess . Love the song . Maybe I should bathe now and go into my grandma's house to disturb my cousin , yays :)  It hurts to love someone when we can't tell them what we really feel... because sometimes we get hurt without them knowing. We get jealous even if we have no right to feel that way. We want their time even if we are not in the position to demand for it. Although our hearts are breaking in silence, we still continue to love them because somehow in this hurtful love there is still hope of having simple moments with them even if it means being just a friend .  I do a lot of thinking before I go to sleep, 1) I play scenes in my head. 2) I practice the things I want to say. 3) I have endless "what ifs". 4) I make plans for the next day. 5) I think of all the people I miss. 6) I think of the ones I hate. 7) I ask myself a lot of questions. Guess this post is long enough . Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :) |